wow it's been a while since I last blagged...had a wedding, had to help #3 make flight reservations to Europe, Vegas etc. (ah the life of the single girl) made valentines, planned a wedding shower and stressed over the boy. He is not calling suppose to go to Bulgaria today but don't know if he did...he's avoiding us since the supposed sucicide attempt and now he isn't making car payments that his mother co-signed for there is extra stress in the family. I resent the fact that he is not communicating with us...plus I am working a 2nd job now to pay for a truck I don't even have...we don't even know where it is. we are not happy about it, the good thing about all this is his mother is finally admitting that his addictions are probably more intense than we thought. he smokes pot daily (this one we know) drinks (doesn't admit how much) and who knows what else he does. We have co'd him forever I hope this helps his mom see what he is at this point in his life. We love him he is our son but he affects our life greatly. I pray he doesn't do something stupid in bulgaria and get busted, it would kill his mom. He will have to live with his choices. ah well vented enough I wish he were little again so we could have a sembleance of influence over him.